my own world of thoughts

hye readers..
i really appreciate yr time n yr willingness to hear from wat im going to write later on..it’s good to know dat having sumone to listen to yr problems n yr heart..n im bless to have u guys as good listeners..

why im falling in love?why you guys are falling in love?…it’s sounds easy to answer but the more you think of the ans,the more you feel there’s no logical reason behind it..what comes to yr mind is that whether u fall in love to the right man and at the right time..and the more u try to give the best ans, the more you feel that u hv made the wrong decision..n i think im in the middle of that…not knowing whether im doing the right decision or not..

well, i know you may say "let’s time decide everything" or "just go with the flow"..n yup  im kinda of agree with dat…just do it as simpler as you can n try to be happy with what you have now..but deep down in my heart..and im sure all of you have the same feeling..that is to expect something from yr relationship..i mean what is the purpose at the first place to get into someone’s n make that person as part of yr life?the most obvious ans now is to be forever with our loved one and build a happy family based on the mutual understanding n love n respect n everything from the relationship dat we had spent on time on it. why on the first place u try to devote yrself to tht person when at the end you end up with nothing?

so,dats what happening to me now..i love him..n the reason is because..i just love him the why he is..n the fact that he’s been waiting for me two years is part of the reason as well..nonetheless, he’s really love me- the way i do- even though im not appealing to other people, he sees my hidden beauty-the inner side of me- the part where i don’t even notice that i own it..he completes me n makes me comfortable..though i haven’t met him. It’s the riskyiest part of our relationship..not having a date..not even once..it’s cyberlove..but still, he accepts me, and i accept him too..

but is he the right person for me?because being hurt is the most scariest thing anyone would ever wanted to have n it’s really painful and i try to avoid it…
am i the one for him?..to him, he’s so sure that im the one that God has sent to complete his life..before n after..

how he can be so sure?…huhuhu…i really hope i can be 200% sure than he does..
but what ever it is, i really love him..my first n last..i hope…

ok guys..thanks for lending ur eyes n ur mind to figure it out the meaning behind the whole long sentences that i have written above.thanks so much…n pray for my happiness…love ya !!!

xoxoxoxoxoxo

hye to all readers-who are so rajin to read others’ blogs–keep it up guys

anyway,im really sory bcoz not updating my blog for quite sumtimes

life here is so hectic-it’s just a connotation-and i feel really exhausted day by day..maybe becoz im trying so hard to pay attention to the lectures n tutes..or im missing someone?i think it’s both:)

well,rite now,im listening to one of my fav songs by who else-Siti Nurhaliza–Cahaya Cinta.I can listen to dis song over n over n over n over.damn nice.even my mum loves dis song too. to me,it is a song that really shows who is Siti in her own feelings.i feel that ct sings this song with all her heart-as the song is specially made for her husband-and it sounds so pure and honest.i think that is what is Siti hopes for her marriage. i know that not all of us agree with her choice-including me :)-but honestly,when u love someone,no matter what happpen,u still want to be beside the person that you really devoted to..

so,that’s what happened to Siti Nurhaliza.she gives all her life to be with the one that she hopes to be everything for her.you see,it’s really hard to make a decision especially when it comes to life and future. but life without risks won’t be alive.sumtimes u need to take risk to spice up your life.so that’s what Siti did.take risk because she believes that her life will be more meaningful with her husband besides her..

enough abt ct-hey,dis blog shld be abt me..hehehhee….

what to write?..honestly, im really blurred rite now..so why don’t we just go to bed and sleep…hehehehhe

ok

dis song is for my ‘Cahaya Cinta’…enjoy

Dia telah telah menentukannya
Kita bertemu dan bercinta
Inilah oh takdirnya
Bukan kerana harta
Inilah citra cahaya cinta

Pintu hatiku telah kau buka
Tak mampu ku menafikannya
Kejujuran diberi
Kasih datang terhenti
Ini bahagia yang ku cari

Sayangi daku
Peluklah daku
Janji dengan ku
Semai cinta nan satu

Tuhan menguji
Takkan berhenti
Hanya ku pinta
Sama setia menjaga
Hingga ke alam syurga

p/s:damn love of dis song.soooo swweeeeetttttt