my own world of thoughts

hye readers

today i’ve done one of my least things to do which is presentation.. it’s not like i hate to do it and watsoever..it’s just dat i don’t have the courage to stand up in front of the people and speak to them..but presentation is essential as it is part of teacher’s job to do it.. and i am going to be a teacher soon..so y bother to hate doing presentation?..
one of the reasons is because my confident level..indeed i am a shy person and always blank and am not a spontaneous person..dats y i hv to make a text and to remember the sentence will be a problem for me cause i tend to read (which i did today)..but yap, dats it..
another reason is i hv this bad exprience when presenting in front of my classmates years ago..during dat time i hv problem with myself and it influences my behavior in the classroom..so my classmates always have this misconceptions towards me(i dun want to talk abt it anymore) and it does affect my confidence level in front of ppl untill now!!!..
but, yup, today i survive it and tho i speak faster, i did it..hurmm with my colors??..maybe not…
somehow i feel dat not all understood what im presenting to them..n guys im soooooooo sooooooooooooorrrrrrrryyyyyyyyy for dat….mybe i speak too fast or maybe i put the words too simple in the slides show…n hv long elaborations to elaborate dat points…so again..im sooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyy….
hurmmm..got to go now…thanks for ur time to read…love you..
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

hye readers…im so exhausted now…huhuhu
firstly thanks to read my own world of thoughts..after being in silence for a while, im back..to express another dissatisfaction with my work.
life can’t hardly be more challenging compare to what im facing now..heaps of assignments make me realize dat this is what you get once you enter a whole new world in university, especially when you’re in sum other place,rather to say in new world. at this point, the place is Aussie..
i just submitted my media esaiment at the KG campus with sue..usually after i send sumthing,particularly the esaiment, i will feel that yup i’ve done what it’s supposed to be done. however, rite now i have this feeling of uncertainity, disbelief,regrets, all the bad things abt my media esaiment. though the fact dat i done it in only one day n send it to my lecturers n senior to check, i still feel sad n hopeless and wondering what is the remark behind my work. i’m worried, totally confused and had this wild thinking dat im not going to pass this FIRST esaiment since i enrolled in qut.with the language dat mostly not up to the par yet, i feel distressed..feeling insecured with what i wrote.
am i on the rite track?am i going to pass it?..all those things make my life in misery. n now im starting to do another esaimen plus to do the readings n stuff
holiday is not holiday to me..it’s like living in hectic life…

and i dun treasure this moment now….

daaaaaaaaaaaa