early morning..
hye guys..
it’s 2.41 am now and i cannot sleep.my eyes still want to work but my body needs rest.huhuhu..why is this happening?
later i realize that it must be sumthing that bothers me that leads to this situation-not being able to sleep..and that thing is the exam..it’s not like i fear it or wateva..but to know that i haven’t prepared anything does scare me off..
i should start revising, but i give it up easily..just because it’s too much for me to do it..with a pile of notes in front of me, wanting and ready to be explored, i just give up..
i know that i need to do sumthing to change myself, my atiitude, but the fact that i hate exam does brings impact to my brain coordination..huhuhu..i just hate it..
however, the thing that is bothering me the most is my last conversation with my love..yup mi amor..huhuhu..i think we have sum small fight(i think) that drives me nuts..recently, our relationship is like on the rock now, waiting to be scattered and falls apart..this long distance rship does challenge our honesty and confidence levels..and again today, i dishurt his feeling..again..
i know i can sumtime be too demanding and so on and so forth..but the reason i do that is to make sure that he’s able to express his feelings and his thoughts..i hate when he said that he’s shy and bla bla bla..so im not shy?am i the one who is too thegeh2?..huhuhu..
when i ask him simple question..how much he earns..he doesn’t want to tell me..y he do that? i don’t understand..i thought he already trust me and has faith in me..it’s not like im going to tell everybody..
n guess what, as usual, he sort of merajuk with me and suddenly wants to end up the call.wtf…i dun even puas talking to him and because of that small matter, he just want to leave like dat..
i know dat it’s my fault and im totally responsible with what has happened.but i just hope he can be a lil bit matured as he’s already 26..and he experiences a lot than me..but sumtime my faith towards him does unstable and i feel like to call it an end..
but yeap. i love him..n hope i still have this feeling towards him..
hope so..
